“Erasing Hopes and Feelings”

I'm trying to get the images of us I had in my head
Out of my head 

I wanted it to be real 
I wanted to feel it 
Feel the warmth of your heart with my head near your chest

I just wanted to have a win
Where someone I like…. like me back

The feelings are disappearing….but slowly 

As I talk to you more and more
it gets harder to erase the romantic images of us
Out of my mind

I'm trying to destroy my feelings for you, but the hard part is that I don't want it to go away 

It was your smile 

Your presence as you walked onto the sand
As you walked closer and closer to me
The feelings I had for you were so strong at that moment

But I know I can't see you in that way anymore 
Because the clarity was stated already
I have let go of my hopes and dreams I had thought about having with you

I wanted it to be you so badly
Until I understood last week that you didn't want it to be me 
I will get through this, but I'm not sure how long this will take for me………