“Cycle of Unrequited Crushes”

Why do I even try

Hints were flowed to you various times

You didn’t even notice any at all
Or maybe you did notice
Or maybe it’s not obvious at all


I want to pour my heart out so much to you

But I can’t because nothing comes out

Because I’m so afraid if it’s unrequited 
I’m afraid of getting hurt 
To know that the feeling isn’t mutual 

To know the fantasy images and videos I replayed in my head about us two  will never even happen 
To know it will never even be possible to happen
Once I know the answer if I were to ask you


I know this feeling of unrequited crushing because this happens frequently to me every couple of years
I crush on a guy and they typically never like me back especially if I’m the one who state how they feel first

I starting to dislike this cycle of crushing on a guy because it doesn’t seem to work out for me 

But I can’t seem to prevent my heart from crushing on a guy is the only issue ……