“Upholding Boundaries”

It’s still hard to believe that I have to maintain distance from certain
people to support my emotions

It doesn’t make sense how, in this world if you don’t set boundaries with
individuals, then you will have people cross you wrong or hurt you

This past year, I’ve had to constantly reiterate my boundaries and
Unfortunately, one person in particular failed to respect it

I don’t take lightly to anyone who doesn’t respect my boundaries, regardless
of if I share the same blood as them

Unfortunately, some people I share blood with failed to see and don’t even
try to fully see my pain but instead, only value the person who disrespected
my boundaries, my feelings, and my mental health

It brings me so much pain to have people fail to realize that I’m still in
pain from the aftermath of that individual, but now I’m in pain because people
don’t get it still

I understand I can’t control and force people to get my side of the story

But it doesn’t feel good, and it’s getting overly exhausting to have to explain
my feelings and boundaries over and over again. It makes me think that my
Emotions and pain don’t matter…

I just want to be by myself a lot lately cause of how much pain and anger I
have in me from people who failed to respect my boundaries, view my beliefs, my
anger, and my pain

It angers me and hurts me so much that I have dreams about getting vengeance
on those who don’t respect my boundaries and push them

I even have thoughts about moving away to another city to get away from
family and friends and just be on my own and start fresh

I know the things I stated above will only be a temporary fix to my feelings

But God, I just want this pain to go away again that I feel in my chest…