“I Wish you Could See”

I wish you could see

That even though it was so easy for you to leave 

Did you ever try to think about the aftermath?
Have you ever thought about leaving me sooner to save me my energy and time?
Did you  ever truly think about me in a romantic way?
Lastly, why did you take me out the picture so quickly like it was so effortless in just 4 hours of decision making?

I have so many questions I know that will never be answered 
But I wish you could see you left me with a broken heart with pieces all over the floor at orange theory, at work, at my home, at my Aunt's home, at certain restaurants we went to, at my moms house … just everywhere I went that I thought about you and our relationship 

I wish you could see that you tore a part of me out that made me believe love is fair 
Because I know that it isn’t and it will never be especially for me 

I wish you could see that you made it hard for me to do certain things in my life and I’m repairing the damage that you did on my life , my heart, and my mind 

I wish you could see 
That I never want to meet you again
I wish you could see how great I  was to you 

I wish you could see how you gave up on someone who gave it their all for you through all your personal traumas in your life 

I wish you could see how I regret saying “I’ll be there for you through the good and bad” 
Because you never really cared about me saying that to you 

I started to realize overall I was easily nothing to you after that 2nd month of our relationship when the personal trauma happened 

 I wish you could see you will never be nothing more to me but a broken memory of what I thought my 1st first  love could be  
Because you will now remain a broken and regretful mistake I gave a chance on to enter in my life 

I wish you could see that exactly now…