“Heartache”

I’m both shattered and broken

This is how  you made me feel now 

You ripped me off like I was bandaid 

Easy and fast but with minimal aftermath feeling of pain 

No warnings 

No signs

Just upright shoved me out of your life 

Like I was a piece paper being balled up and thrown in the trash 

No hesitation 

Not even a look of regret 

Not even a call to explain it all 

My reminders of being there for you through the burdens of your life 

Merely had no meaning to you 

My vulnerability was wide open to you

But you decided to close off yours 

I tried and tried to help you and be there

For you through your burdens

You kept me in the closet of your despair

You shoved me out of your existence 

You reminded that our relationship was 

And will never be nothing to you ever again

You hurt me

You caused an ache like no other 

Right in the center of my chest 

Like a knife twisting and turning into my heart

How could you?

How could you be similar like the  others

Two faced and deceptive  

This pain you felt is now inflicted upon me

I hate you 

But most of all

I hate you for appearing in my life 

And destroying most of the little hope of finding “love” I have left 

Even more than last time