“Deception of Love”

I wrap my heart and mind around the feeling of being in love and to be loved

I can’t await to anticipate the day my knight and shining armor prince comes knocking at my door 

I soon realize it would take many trials before the one would even be revealed because of how men deceive me into thinking they want a relationship 

Most men I encountered  look at me as if I’m  the one for them when they look at me and some are even bold to get to the point of it with just one sentence 

I started to realize that most men will encounter me not for the sole purpose of dating or a relationship but they just wanted “my body”

They deceive me into saying they want a relationship but in reality all they ever wanted was “my body” like it’s some tool to use to get  their fix off on at night or in the morning

I weep every time this happens and it always feels like I’m being stabbed in my heart  every time a man deceived me  into thinking they want a relationship 

I just want to feel love and be loved , but I wonder why men fake wanting it and just want sex from me.
It was as if my body was a better usage for them than my personality,love, and mind. 

I just wanted to feel wanted and be loved , why is that so hard to find in another man?

It breaks  me and it hurts me but I try to not  let it destroy me in my hope of finding the one…..