“A Heart Awaiting Love”

You wrap you heart around just thought of being in love

The thought always passes your mind like a person waiting for a bus at a busy city street 

You’re so sensitive to the topic of a relationship you immediately feel a  cruel shrug of cold wind hit your back as you see two people hold hands or kiss

This wasn’t the only uncomfortable feeling you felt , you even felt a sensation of your chest being pricked at with a knife  when you see two guys hug and tell each other they love each other on tv or in a movie

Memories even start to roll in your your mind that you depress of your many failed attempts  to talk and be in a relationship with a guy since 8th grade

You remeber how the pain made you want to change yourself, it made you hate yourself in high school, it made you wonder if you’re even likable enough for a relationship 

You remember their are lot of men in this world who don’t value the same things of a relationship and love as you 

You try to fill  the void of feeling like you’ll be single forever through dating apps but you soon realized it had no effect
It was like putting a small bandage on a large bruise

You tell yourself  now and keep telling yourself the following: “love awaits those when the time is truly right in the eyes of God” as you try to enjoy your life as much as possible