“What Happened to Love….?”

I didn't understand how back in the day in the 60s-90s people were fonder of dating & relationships. Now in today's age it shifted to wanting "friends with benefits" or just wanting "fun". It was like the idea of "wanting to fall in love" is dying like a leaf when the season changes from spring to winter. There has to be a reason to what's causing love to die, but what are the "causes"?



Part of me wonders did the pandemic had something to do with this change. Was it the hardships people faced in their lives that is making people feel "love" is unnecessary? Do people feel like it's easier and less probable to drama to not be in a relationship? 



"Chivalry" is even dying too and to be honest it was never so much of this in the LGBTQ community to begin with. I want to honestly experience this feeling soon with someone but I'm still so unhopeful I will get this and to feel "love" from someone.


I'm still even mad, confused, but most importantly hurt that my "love" & "infatuation" is being disregarded but not "my body" to men. I can even share a few examples below of how men treated me in just wanting a relationship to really wanting "my body" below: 

1) I shared a part of my blogs to a guy and a day later he blocks me.

2) I tried talking to this guy for 13 days thinking it was going well until he showed his "true colors". I realized he didn't want me to be his "tethered" as he described in his profile because all he truly wanted from me was "my body" and nothing more.

I could go on and on for hours about how men put up this "facade" of what you want them to be. As soon as they see you're comfortable with them, they start to show their "true colors". Then you realize this isn't the person you liked or fell in love with and your shattered to pieces emotionally.


"Love" is dying and I'm just trying to understand why? I'm still seeking for it within my first relationship. I even started to realize that "love" sometimes fails, but I hope the number of heartbreaks I have is kept to a minimum. My heart can only take so much since it's so fragile like a piece of glass.

I wish for "love" and "chivalry" to arrive within "the one" for me soon. I just hope it's not in 20 years or more because my faith in finding love is dissipating......