“The Dread of Dating”

I don’t understand why I put myself in situations where I know the outcome of it all.

The outcome where I redownload the app thinking he’s nice and sweet and interested in me.

I could possibly find someone willing to date me for the first time …but no it doesn't go that way at all.

I constantly get the worst outcomes with guys on apps.

I get the ones that want to have “fun”, the ones that talk to me for about 3 hours and then never replies back again. 

I get the ones who blocks me after a few conversations, and I get ones who just doesn’t even reply back.

The agony I feel when this relative cycle keeps happening to me and I continue to look stupid. 

I say this because I know the “outcome” of how these dating apps turn out for me, but I continue to go back to it.

I wonder is it because it feels like I’m missing something in my life or is it because I’m still yearning for a partner. 

I continue to keep thinking someday I will have a day where someone fits well with, what I want in a guy, and they’ll show on the app. I should know to stop thinking so imaginative that a guy like this would pop up because "it never fails".

I continue to have hopes of thinking maybe this time it will change if I give it another try but no it doesn’t. There are still men in this world who thinks “love is a joke and having fun is better than it”.


I wish our generation wouldn’t think like this and there are even people in relationships or even married and still on dating apps which makes no sense. 

It almost as if you’re rubbing your love into us single men face. 

It feels even worse when us single men who genuinely want a relationship, but our hearts get toyed with like a puppet by guys who could care less about love.
They say the right things to us like the following: "anything for you", "I like when you're vulnerable with me", and "I like that your so open with me". Then they just vanish or block you like you were nothing as if it was something you said or did wrong, but you know you didn't at all......


I’m trying to understand the dating world, but I am having less and less faith that I will find someone who have the same virtues and values as me about "love".