“Sacrifices”

Changes come with every passing day

Like a leaf on a tree starts to turn brown and crinkle as it gets closer to fall

Change is inevitable for nature

Change for us humans happens sporadically and instantly changes our mood depending on how we react

Change comes with having to make sacrifices 
Sacrifices that  kept you as a whole and sane and sacrifices that taught you so many life lessons

But with so many sacrifices comes unbelievable pain for each you gave up 

You may repress the thoughts and emotions by keeping busy, but unfortunately, they tend to come back at some point in a dauntingly aggressive way

The emotions tend to fill your body like a glass of water slowly as each day passes by until it is full 
Your heart, chest, and stomach are packed with so much water that it explodes out because you see the water is overflowing

It's overflowing because you bottled up your emotions and did not express your sorrow and grief about the sacrifices you made

It doesn't even help that everyday life situations, people, movies, and social media send reminders to you of what you lost and what you can't have at the moment 

You know these sacrifices were made for your future and that you have to look at life at what greatness is coming or the greatness you are about to do soon

Eventually, the sorrow you feel due to the sacrifices tends to dissipate, but the length of the process is unknown, and I wonder when it will happen for me……