“Repressing your Feelings”

You repressed your feelings you had for him because you know the chances for him to like you back was slim to none

But those feelings are dwelling back into your heart because he's trying to be your friend...



You're starting to fall for the acts of service he provides to you

The kindness in his heart for wanting to get to know you

The thoughtfulness he shows in remembering the small details about you

You want to wrap your mind, your heart, and your happiness you have about him into a box that you'll never have to open up again



You wonder how you can break the strings of your heart that is attached to him
You wonder how you can destroy the imaginative romance images you have about him in your mind
You wonder how you can dispel your infatuation for him into oblivion

You know its a curse to fall for a heterosexual man because it will almost always be unrequited infatuation

You wish you could have a distraction from thinking about him
You wish you've never lay eyes on him when you first saw him


You just want a distraction,a disappearance of your feelings for him, a way to destroy your thoughts and feelings you have about him

But How?
How and why am I put in this predicament God?
I pray for a solution, a calling, an answer to my suffering 


I don’t know if I can repress my feelings and deal with this unrequited infatuation….